Beautiful things can't be seen touched ,they can be felt with heart

Life gives us both good experiences as well as bad ones. We choose  either enjoy and learn from it or weep over it , until someone brings us out. These few lines came out when i was in transition period of realising between what i want and not! Thanks to my loved ones for not loosing hopes on me.

How can i be talking ,thinking to myself?
How can i be laughing to myself?

I can barely be able to differentiate,
what's real and what's not!

I felt like a dream, a dream that
i would never want to wake up from.

Have you ever felt confused
between reality & dreams?
These feelings inside me, that
i can't describe .
It keeps me awake for
days & nights.

I can feel the cool breeze gushing past my face , frozen remains my brain.
I wish i always remained a child, world around me scares me badly.
But some day i have to face it,
Now struck between "trying hard" & "why bother?"